i push my fingers into my eyes...

this is fun the part...whatever begins must end...but while the end is still a mystery...now becomes history...with each passing second...we come closer to death...to our ultimate demise...our meeting with our maker...but until that moment...of absolute clarity...when the reasons of our existence...suddenly become imminent...life is here...time evolves...love flourishes...God blesses...I live...

Monday, May 16, 2005

of time and love...

One day it was announced to all of the
feelings that
the island was
going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the
feelings
prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only
one that stayed. She
wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last
possible
moment. When the island was almost totally
under, love decided it was
time to leave. She began looking for someone to
ask for help.

Just then Richness was passing by in a grand
boat. Love
asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your
boat?" Richness
answered, " I'm sorry, but there is a lot of
silver and
gold on my
boat and there would be no room for you
anywhere."

Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was
passing in a
beautiful vessel. Love cried out,"Vanity, help me
please." "I can't
help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will
damage my beautiful
boat."

Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love
said, "Sadness, please let me go with you."
Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just
need to be alone now."

Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried
out, "Happiness, please take me
with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he
didn't hear Love
calling to him.

Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice
say, "Come Love, I will
take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so
blessed and
overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his
name. When they
arrived on land, the elder went on his way. Love
realized how much
she owed the elder.

Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was
it that helped me?" "It was Time", Knowledge
answered. "But why did Time help me when no one
else would?", Love asked.

Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and
sincerity,
answered, "Because only Time is capable of
understanding how great
Love is."

Thursday, May 12, 2005

:::::good evening to the sun:::

i just told stephen to get out of the box...

who the f*ck am i kidding? i live inside a smaller box...i live inside a hole...inside the box...inside a cage...inside a chest...beneath the sea...

i trying to burst out into the world, but nothing seems to be working...

dammit...i'm getting old...the lines on my face becoming clearer now...my weariness is becoming more obvious...my oblivion to these things is fading...dammit...

dormitory...breaks down into two words...namely...dirty room...

its 11:27 pm...checked out my friendster account...bikoi is having her birthday...i made her a birthday testimonial but she hasn't approved it yet...

i went to cybellesrobe.blogspot.com a few nights ago...wrote a message with the name francis...addressed it faye...funny...

i made a song today...but i can't believe i've forgotten it already...damn, my selective tune memory...

God is good...we are good...so, we are God? ...the stupidest thing i've ever f*cking heard...

its 11:30 pm...time to go to sleep...goodnight...so long...and goodnight...

Thursday, May 05, 2005

boredom

my head hurts from the many hours i've spent in front of the computer screen doing absolutely nothing...

my posts here have come once in a blue moon and they've gotten shorter...and shorter...and shorter...

my mind is wasting away...

God help me...